Im a better person because of autism

I wasnt me until you
I wasnt whole
I wasnt true.

You came in with a hurricane
I should have known it was more than rain

I wanted a baby perfect as could be
a baby would love and resemble me

I had no idea the kind of mom you would need
I cant do it... I thought
Im too selfish for this seed

I was only seeing the world through my eyes
I didnt see it was masked with all of these lies

Lies about how you were ok
lies about boys speaking slower they would say

Then one day I realized it wasnt you who needed excuses
but me, because in my heart I felt useless

For you are not jaded or hurtful at all
you see beauty and humor in things so small

We non- autistics rush through our lives fighting and trying to succeed
succeeding at things that you my son have already achieved

Im so much more than I thought I could be
You brought out the most incredible mother in me

I fight for you everyday and i always will
but that doesnt compare to the change you instill

Thank you for coming in your imperfect way
and teaching that perfect is your everyday

I hope to keep learning from you everyday my broken masterpiece